Saving the World and Arguing with God!

"What are you guys doing?" Asked people on a dirty street in San Francisco.
A 7 year old with a glove on one hand and garbage bag in the other responded excitedly, "We're saving the world."
Our classroom spent time cleaning our corner of the city. Our plan was to go to the beach and help clean up from the oil spill. But, wisely, the city closed all the beaches. So instead we cleaned up our block. It was great. People gave great words of encouragement to our kids and our kids gave a great example what joyful service is. They raced each other with mostly smiles and laughter to garbage on the sidewalk to "save the world. They were an example of "doing something." I listened to a sermon a couple weeks ago and the pastor was saying that sometimes we see the greatness of the worlds need and get so overwhelmed that we get frozen and don't do anything. He said, "We can't do everything, but we can do something." The oil spill looks so huge and will take years to clean up, but we can do something. We can clean up the little corner of our neighborhood.
So some of you may be wondering what I ended up doing with the money God provided for me to give away. Well, it turned out much differently then expected. So the homeless guy that I had been seeing must have relocated for now, so I was back to square 1 as to what God wanted me to do with this money. So on my way work one day this week, I argued with God. I wanted to control the money. I wanted to control where it went to, who it went to, and make sure it was used for a "worthy" cause. He said, "just give it away. I'm in control, and oh, yeah, Nate, remember that you haven't always used what I have given you wisely, but I still provide for you." Ok, Ok, so in the midst of this argument a guy walks up and asks for money for food. Ok, Ok, God I get it. So I with shaky unsure hands give him some money still scared that it will get used for unwise things. He grinned and said that now he can go to McDonalds and have a real feast. Then I get to work and find out that one of our kids families is need of food, so I'm buying a food gift card for groceries.
Do I still feel a little uncomfortable about all this?? Yes, but this time, anyway, God said, "Just give. I'm in control."
God is teaching me a lot about simplicity and making more room in my life for Him and what He wants. It's tough sometimes. It means sacrifice I don't think I'm read for yet. It means a lot of trust that I don't think I have yet. Do I trust that God will really provide? Do I really trust that God will give me what I need? My desire for wants is still greater then for what I just need.
Lord, help to give up what I want to hold to. Help me to give up what I think will give me security, what I think I need to sustain me. Help me to give up security for what You want. I know that Your calling, Your way of life, is far better then what this world has to offer. Help to know this at my core. Help me to trust you. Teach me trust. Help me to give up control and give with great abandon. Help me to give up lovers less wild for you and your truly wild love.