Letting Go and Moving on!!

Well, it's about 1:30 am the night before I leave for San Fran. What am I doing? Actually it hasn't really hit me yet that I'm actually moving. It sort of feels like I'm just going on a trip and I'll be back real soon. So here I am moving on to the next chapter of life. Several things have come up as I have prepared to leave. One is that letting go is hard to do. I just listened to a sermon on letting go and the guy said that we need to let go of what we have to grab onto whatever God has for us next. But, he also said that letting go is often messy. It's messy because we don't like to let go of what we know and letting go means we are not in control anymore. I feel like I'm letting go of my life here in Rapid and not sure where or what I'm grabbing on to. I guess that's when I need to just grab on to the promise that God knows what's coming next and that he won't let me go. So am I really grabbing hold if He already has a hold of me??

Letting go is often hard because you have to say good bye to people. This has been hard and sometimes messy. Sometimes we build up walls to make it easier to say good bye. But, I've learned again that doesn't work very well. So forgiveness and love need to come into play again. Which is hard to do. It's hard to admit you were wrong and ask for forgiveness, but keeping the friendships are worth it. Friendships are worth the pain that they sometimes cause. The joy that friendships have brought me has been undescribable. The late night conversation over a beer around a fire, the laughs about nothing at all, the jokes that no one else gets, the games of Settlers played, the sometimes silence that is shared looking out over the city or up to the star filled nights, the hours of Guitar Hero played, the meals eaten together, the prayers prayed together, the mountains climbed, the rivers kayaked, the discussions about life, God, and what it all means, and the list could go on.

But, it's time to move on............ On to whatever it is God has for all of us. Not moving on from these friendships, just moving to a different place in them. Moving on to the unknown, the mystery, the new busy city, the new people and friendships, the thing that God has placed on my heart for awhile now. I think if I didn't do it I would regret it. So here we go................ letting go and moving on. It's sometimes messy, but as a friend of mine told me that when we move on to a new chapter it is almost always for the good and we learn again to trust in our big mysteries God that we sometimes don't get but we trust anyway. We let go of our control and let God do what He wants!! It's messy, but it's good. I'm a little scared, a little sad, but really excited!!